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Heyya!

I got no ideas on what to write on my blog these days. So, this is just a little bit of a rant? I guess? Haha.

Well, if you guys wouldn't mind doing me a favor, how about you guys check out my book on Wattpad and my singing on Soundcloud? It would mean so much to me. Comment something on either websites so I know that you knew me from my stupid blog over here. God, I'm the lamest person ever.

Here's the link => Wattpad ; www.wattpad.com/story/20420117-out-of-limits
                            Soundcloud : https://soundcloud.com/tyramaree


Adios, beautiful people!xx

Love,

Thieyra Niesa J.

The Day I Realized That I'm Stupid

Hey, my dearest readers!

                                  It's been quite a long time since I last post something on my blog. It's freaking 9 months! Haha! Well, did you miss my silly writings? Pfft, I'm having my hopes up.*inserts annoyingly high-pitched voice* Boooo! No one likes you! :p

                                   Okay, okay. Now let me start my pity rant. Today's topic is 'The Day I Realized That I'm Stupid'. Well, it's not a humorous story though. It's actually quite a sad and embarrassing story. *adds over exaggerating sobs* bahahaha but I'm serious when I say this is not humorous unless you find someone else's pain is funny. Anyways, if no one calls you beautiful today, I'm going to say it to you. You are beautiful and amazing. Ily,babe :)

                                   *Drum rolls* Let's start the rant of mine! Okay, here goes.

                                    This happened recently when I was at my school's uniform body camp. I was just helping my teacher out (goodie good student :p) because obviously Taekwondo isn't a real uniform body. You know why? Because we kick asses haha. Well, back to the story, the second night of the camp, they were having a 'Cultural Night' where the campers need to perform any performances(excluding stripping, twerking and so on you got my point xD) on stage and the winners are going to be the school representative for the Inter-school Cultural Performance Competition.

                                     Being the 'talented' person I am when it comes to talking, the teacher chose me to be the emcee for the night. She's an Indian teacher and she asked me to wear her 'sari', which was such a huge honor after she said she never let anyone borrow her 'sari' but me. I was so excited and yet I'm so insecure. I told my friend that I want to look different that night so I decided why not put on some make-up? I called my 'hot stuff' of a cousin to help me out since she's a guru in make-up. She agreed to help me out and I was really looking forward for the night.

                                     Alas, things didn't go as I well-planned it to be. I was late to come to my cousin's house which was like 20 minutes away from me. She didn't tell me that she had some youth mass at church earlier so you can say that my make-up session was a rush. After she finished her job, I looked at myself in the mirror and I felt really, really uncomfortable. I went to ask for my brother's opinion and he said that I looked okay. Why that was soooo convincing, bro! -_-  I was so insecure but I just shrugged it off and went to think positively.

                                     However, as I arrived at school and went to change into my outfit, I saw my friends in the room and they were all staring at me with mouth agape. I felt really self-conscious. However, before I could say anything, the whole room burst out into a fit of booming laughter. That was it. That was when I realized that I'm stupid to think of make-up can make me look beautiful but instead I just got humiliated. I was hoping that the ground would just swallow me right that very moment. Oh God, I was beyond embarrassed and sad. 

                                      You know what the best part was? The best part was that my BEST FRIENDS, the one that I trusted, freaking laughed at me. I swear their laughter were the loudest. Bloody hell. God really showed me the truth about my 'BEST FRIENDS'. Anyways, I emceed the function quite good and it kept my mind off the humiliating incident. The compliments thrown at me by some people were completely ignored by me since I knew that I am not even pretty. Ew.

                                    After the function was over, I went out and cried in the lonely and dark night of the school. I called the only person I really trusted which is my cousin. She's at the same age as I am so we totally have a deep connection.I told her everything that happened and she told me to just go home. The ones who laughed at me just watched me pack my bags and didn't dare to say a word. I went home and cried myself to sleep as the pain was so deep.

                                 I skipped school the next Monday and I still cried over the humiliating incident. I refused to talk to my 'BEST FRIENDS' since they were the major reason why I was hurt so badly. Until this very day, I didn't talk to them and it's almost a month since the incident. I don't care if I was being a bitch towards them because they need to know that they left a huge scar on my heart and really hurt my little self-esteem. Oh let me tell you that they obviously knew that I am very insecure so why did they did this to me was beyond me.

                              That's my story. I'm sorry if my rant is too long or what but I just want to say this again to you so that you won't end up doing something stupid like me just to feel pretty; YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING, DON'T LET ANYONE MAKES YOU THINK OTHERWISE. Bye :)

Yours Truly,

Theiyra Niesa J.

Carrie..

Hello my dear readers!

                Did you guys miss me? LOL there would be probably no one is reading my blog. But whatever it's my blog tho. Anyways, today's topic is 'Carrie'. Well basically it's a novel-based kind of movie which was written by Stephen King(uhh sorry if i spelt it wrong, Mr. Famous Writer:> ) Maybe most of you guys had read it or watched the movie. And I really love the movie! It was awesome!

                 The thing is, I really love the message in this story. It is about bullying. I am among those who are against bullying. If you are with me, you would absolutely love this movie. I don't wanna be a spoilsport by telling you guys all about the movie when you haven't watch it yourself ;)

                   
                    "One can only be pushed too far" "A person has it's own limitation" "No one deserves to be treated poorly" :: these are some of my thoughts after I watched this movie. Like seriously no one likes to be picked upon the others. Even myself. Everyone has their own right to be loved, to be respected and also to be happy. So please don't ever treat people the way you wouldn't want to be treated because Karma will get to you sooner or later.


                     Let's push away the seriousness for awhile. I wanna share with you guys my rebellious moment when i went to watch this movie. Well actually I felt like a little rebel because I faked myself to be an adult when I went to watched 'Carrie' because the film was rated 18 above in our country because extreme violence? idk well that's it. I was with my brother and my cousin. We even brought my uncle's ID card and make up stories about my uncle asked us to buy the tickets. It was pretty hilarious because we stand there for like half an hour until we get the courage to actually trick that girl at the counter.


                   It turns out that the girl at the counter didn't even asked for our ID card. She just said, "You guys are 18 above right?" We all made this weird-awkward-yes face and she actually buy it. And we were celebrating like crazy because we were able to watch the movie. We came up with a stupid quote which goes; "Desperation leads human to become rebellious leprachaun" well....okay... lol. Until next time! :P



Yours Truly,
Thieyra Niesa J.

My Biggest Inspiration: Demi Lovato

If you never heard of her story, you should watch the documentary "Stay Strong" :)

All time favs :) [dido youtube mix (playlist)]

The Truth .

                   Sometimes don't you think that everybody is hiding something from you? Your family, your friends or who ever person that you love? Did it ever occur in your mind that sometimes what they say are just all sugar-coated? Well, I do.
                   I'm sort of sad to know that those person who I've trusted think that I'm gonna break if they tell me truth. It may left cracks on my heart but at least I appreciate that they are telling me the truth. Even if the truth is sometimes hard to accept.
                    This may be a short update but all I just wanna say is that the truth may hurt but at least try to say it to that person you're hiding it. Who knows they got so desperate to know and at the end they committed suicide because of the pressure? You'll never get to say it to that person. Who knows they will distance themselves from you because they think you hated them when the truth is you really do love and care for them? You'll lose the ones you love.
                      Things may get better. But the pain will still remain as a scar will be formed on  hearts. There's a quote that goes, "no matter how broken my heart may feel, I will always be grateful that it still has a beat". That quote was from Demi Lovato. She's one of my biggest inspirations by the way :) In short, you should know that when you kept something about a person, at the end you'll be the one who's stressing out.

Yours Truly,
Thieyra Niesa J.

A Girl's Fear

     Hey there beautiful people of all around the world! :D How are you today?  Have you received any "I Love You" from anyone today? If you don't, I'm here for you. I Love You So Much :* Okay now. Today I'm gonna share with you guys about 'A Girl's Fear' since I'm a girl and I understand my own kind. So boys, better listen carefully if you're trying to hit on a girl ;)

     Girls are a unique creature that God created. They wanted to be loved and cared for. They sometimes feel insecure about themselves. Even the carefree ones. You know? We can't see what's hiding behind the perfect smile. A girl fears that they are rejected or not accepted by the society. What I'm saying is that, they want people to appreciate them no matter how they look like or how they dress. It's hard to please the society of course. Even the girl who acts like she didn't care of what people would think of her. But a girl has a certain part in their deepest heart to be very upset on what people had to think. Especially when comes to physical appearance. They hated it when people call them fat. They hated it when people call them ugly. Like for real, people can be very cruel sometimes or maybe all the time. A girl fears that the someone they love, won't love them back. This is absolutely true because it's a woman's nature to want to feel loved and cared for. You can call a girl who wants to commit suicide after a break up with her boyfriend stupid. But seriously, if you are smart enough, you should be there to comfort her and not judge her. The reason she thinks that committing suicide is the way to end her misery is because there is no one who wanted to hear her stories and give her motivation to move on.

     Deep isn't it? Oh well. It is. But remember, the main thing here is that girls wanted to feel happy and loved and cared for. It doesn't matter what you think you look like, girls. You are beautiful, gorgeous, hot, pretty, fly, cute, sexy, humble, kind and so on in your own unique way ;) You can't see it. But others will see it. The true beauty lives inside you ;)

Uhmm yeah. That's all for now. Hope you guys got some new insight :) And oh! I attached one of my favorite song. It's Little Things by One Direction. *cough* directioner *cough*. Hehe. Okay, I'm outta here *doing some ninja tasks ;D

Yours Truly,
Thieyra Niesa J.