The Day I Realized That I'm Stupid

Hey, my dearest readers!

                                  It's been quite a long time since I last post something on my blog. It's freaking 9 months! Haha! Well, did you miss my silly writings? Pfft, I'm having my hopes up.*inserts annoyingly high-pitched voice* Boooo! No one likes you! :p

                                   Okay, okay. Now let me start my pity rant. Today's topic is 'The Day I Realized That I'm Stupid'. Well, it's not a humorous story though. It's actually quite a sad and embarrassing story. *adds over exaggerating sobs* bahahaha but I'm serious when I say this is not humorous unless you find someone else's pain is funny. Anyways, if no one calls you beautiful today, I'm going to say it to you. You are beautiful and amazing. Ily,babe :)

                                   *Drum rolls* Let's start the rant of mine! Okay, here goes.

                                    This happened recently when I was at my school's uniform body camp. I was just helping my teacher out (goodie good student :p) because obviously Taekwondo isn't a real uniform body. You know why? Because we kick asses haha. Well, back to the story, the second night of the camp, they were having a 'Cultural Night' where the campers need to perform any performances(excluding stripping, twerking and so on you got my point xD) on stage and the winners are going to be the school representative for the Inter-school Cultural Performance Competition.

                                     Being the 'talented' person I am when it comes to talking, the teacher chose me to be the emcee for the night. She's an Indian teacher and she asked me to wear her 'sari', which was such a huge honor after she said she never let anyone borrow her 'sari' but me. I was so excited and yet I'm so insecure. I told my friend that I want to look different that night so I decided why not put on some make-up? I called my 'hot stuff' of a cousin to help me out since she's a guru in make-up. She agreed to help me out and I was really looking forward for the night.

                                     Alas, things didn't go as I well-planned it to be. I was late to come to my cousin's house which was like 20 minutes away from me. She didn't tell me that she had some youth mass at church earlier so you can say that my make-up session was a rush. After she finished her job, I looked at myself in the mirror and I felt really, really uncomfortable. I went to ask for my brother's opinion and he said that I looked okay. Why that was soooo convincing, bro! -_-  I was so insecure but I just shrugged it off and went to think positively.

                                     However, as I arrived at school and went to change into my outfit, I saw my friends in the room and they were all staring at me with mouth agape. I felt really self-conscious. However, before I could say anything, the whole room burst out into a fit of booming laughter. That was it. That was when I realized that I'm stupid to think of make-up can make me look beautiful but instead I just got humiliated. I was hoping that the ground would just swallow me right that very moment. Oh God, I was beyond embarrassed and sad. 

                                      You know what the best part was? The best part was that my BEST FRIENDS, the one that I trusted, freaking laughed at me. I swear their laughter were the loudest. Bloody hell. God really showed me the truth about my 'BEST FRIENDS'. Anyways, I emceed the function quite good and it kept my mind off the humiliating incident. The compliments thrown at me by some people were completely ignored by me since I knew that I am not even pretty. Ew.

                                    After the function was over, I went out and cried in the lonely and dark night of the school. I called the only person I really trusted which is my cousin. She's at the same age as I am so we totally have a deep connection.I told her everything that happened and she told me to just go home. The ones who laughed at me just watched me pack my bags and didn't dare to say a word. I went home and cried myself to sleep as the pain was so deep.

                                 I skipped school the next Monday and I still cried over the humiliating incident. I refused to talk to my 'BEST FRIENDS' since they were the major reason why I was hurt so badly. Until this very day, I didn't talk to them and it's almost a month since the incident. I don't care if I was being a bitch towards them because they need to know that they left a huge scar on my heart and really hurt my little self-esteem. Oh let me tell you that they obviously knew that I am very insecure so why did they did this to me was beyond me.

                              That's my story. I'm sorry if my rant is too long or what but I just want to say this again to you so that you won't end up doing something stupid like me just to feel pretty; YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING, DON'T LET ANYONE MAKES YOU THINK OTHERWISE. Bye :)

Yours Truly,

Theiyra Niesa J.